Jesus Isn't Rude

Ephesians 4:29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouth, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.

Growing up, my mom had a magnet on our refrigerator that quoted Ephesians 4:29, in fact, I think we might still have it. I never fully understood what this verse meant though. Okay, don’t cuss. Alright, don’t be rude to people. Fine, don’t sass my parents. Whatever, I could easily deal with all of that. I didn’t need to memorize this verse or think about it in depth. It’s obviously surface level, right? Ha, no. I have noticed that I have no regards for anyone but myself when it comes to the things I say. Some people may try to stick up for me and say, “oh no, stop, you are a nice person. Everyone can be mean at times.” Stop right there. I do not want anyone’s sympathy. I do not deserve anyone’s sympathy. I am rude and I need to change. End of story.  As I have grown up, I have realized that people get offended by a lot of things I say. Usually, I am one of the first to admit how rude I am. Quite honestly, I tend to say this in a very prideful manner. What in the world am I thinking? What reason is there to be happy about being rude? There isn’t one. Jesus commands us to love one another and to be Christ to people. This means thinking about things before you say them and not being rude for no good reason. That is who Jesus is.

                Last night, the grown kids went to a pizzeria for dinner. On our way there, a homeless person walked up to the window and I commented about her making me uncomfortable. I said this without thinking about it affecting anyone else in the car. I said this from my own opinion. And I said this about us not having any extra money to give her- not about her being homeless. I love working with any homeless ministry. I love talking and praying with the people and truly listening to their stories. It is one of my aspirations to open a homeless shelter someday because I know it is needed. Unfortunately, not everyone in the car knew this about me. On our way home, one of the guys made a comment about homeless people making me uncomfortable and another person in the car got very offended by it. He ended up kind of shutting down and just going to bed when we got home. Even when I apologized, it didn’t seem to help. (If he ends up reading this, I genuinely am sorry if I offended you and I am also sorry about telling everyone that reads this blog about it…) You see, the ministry the Blume’s have here in Porto Alegre works with men that have possibly been homeless in the past due to alcohol or drug addictions. So when I made my seemingly harmless comment, I hurt his feelings because of how much he cares about the men at the Chacara. He is passionate enough about his friends and what he does that he isn’t going to allow me or anyone else to make mean comments. That is how I want to be. I want to be able to stand up to my friends when they are gossiping. I want to be brave enough to be Jesus like this.

When we speak, we need to become fully aware of our surroundings and the people in them. All night, I have been bothered with my comment. I cannot get it out of my head how many other things I have said throughout my life that I didn’t even notice someone get upset because I was too full of myself to care. However, I am even more worried about the things I have said to someone trying to fit in or trying to make people laugh. My heart hurts knowing that I have cause so many people sadness and pain. And I am truly sorry if I have hurt your feelings and you are reading this. Another thing I have become very aware of since being in Brasil, whenever someone starts to annoy me I immediately start being rude to them. I make very offensive comments and become hateful towards a person until they don’t want to be around me anymore. I have always had a way with knowing exactly what to say to upset someone. And I have never held back from saying something it. I do not like this part of me. I remember fighting with my mom growing up and knowing exactly what to say to hurt her, but waiting for the exact moment to say it. I remember knowing exactly what my closest friends were insecure about and using it against them in fights. I knew exactly which button to press and when to press it. I am ready to change this about myself. And I know the only way I am going to do it is with a lot of help from God with my self-control and a lot of patience from the people I am closest to.

I do not want to be the girl that is mean. I want to be kind and loving towards everyone. That’s who Jesus is. I want to be passionate enough about people to stand up for them regardless of who they are or where they came from. That’s who Jesus is. I want to be Jesus in everything I say. I want to stop being rude to people just because they are annoying me. Jesus is such a cool guy. It seriously just blows my mind. I want to live my life striving to be like Jesus and Jesus isn’t rude. Proverbs 12:18 says, “Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing.” I want a tongue of the wise. I no longer want to have reckless words that pierce like a sword and forever leave a scar. I have left too many scars. I am ready to be like Jesus in my words more now than ever.

Loving my Blumes, but missing my Sedtal's

In ten days I will have been in Brasil for a month. Other than college, this is the longest time I have ever been away from home. And let me tell you, I feel it. I do not think I have ever been this homesick.
Brasil is awesome though. I absolutely have fallen more in love with the Blume family than I even thought was possible. I have never met a family that shows the love of Jesus better than they do. And I am positive Jesus would have laughed at their sarcasm just as much as I do. I wish I could take them all back to America with me. I love that Dad is a weirdo and makes farting jokes all the time. I love that Mom is the most kind and loving person and she makes the most delicious food. I love that Bronwyn and Stephen are here and how Stephen's craziness doesn't even phase Bronwyn anymore. I love how motherly Bronwyn is all the time. I love how Ansley always finds the best in people and that she is one of the most kind hearted people I have ever met. I love how much Garrett loves soccer and how good he is at it and that he will be famous one day. I love how Carys is the coolest 15 year old I have ever met in my life and how snuggly she is. I love that Anderson is OBSESSED with the USA team even though technically he is Brasilian. and I love that Giovanni calls me sister constantly and likes to squeeze my guts out when he hugs me.
As much as I completely adore the Blume's though, I really am missing home so much. For the past five summers, I have lived at my Aunt's house and been a nanny for her boys, Tyler, Teague, and Talon. Throughout these five summers, I pretty much became inseparable with their family. Before I went to college, I don't think there was a single day that I wasn't at their house. Being away from them this summer is killing me, but I guess that's part of growing up. I think I have realized I don't like growing up. Last night, Talon FaceTimed me about a thousand times and I just about cried when the internet kept going out. I miss my boys a lot. I miss Talon being a little weirdo. I miss everything ridiculous Tyler says that we all just laugh at. I miss Teague being a sassy little diva all the time. I miss my Aunt shaking her head at my Uncle's inappropriate jokes. I miss my Uncle's inappropriate comments and funny jokes. I really miss having an older sister all the time that I can talk to and run to with all the things. I miss our movie nights that we have every weekend and our Pepsi and popcorn deliciousness.
I think I am just missing my Sedtal family too much.

Okay, I am done being sentimental. Here's some pictures of everyone.

This is Carys, isn't she so pretty?

JK, she actually is so beautiful. We are just both really weird.

This is Ansley, my bestfriend, after the Brasil game. She's so pretty.

lol, Ansley.

Mom loves taking selfies. She's beautiful.

Giovanni had his June Festival a couple days ago. He devoured this cotton candy afterwards.

He kind of made a mess...

We all like to play Call of Duty at night. Here's me, Carys, Garrett, Stephen, and Michael. Michael is from College Station. He is here with us for the week!

Here's all of us watching the opening World Cup game at a family friend's house.

I don't want to be #blessed.

Yesterday, we decided to go to downtown Porto Alegre to shop, see some buildings, and just kind of explore. While we were walking to get on the bus, I witnessed, for the first time in my life, a man digging through the dumpster looking for food. My heart was absolutely broken. How is it that I can go throughout my day eating and snacking whenever I please, yet this man has to dig through the trash to find anything possible?  Since I am in Brazil, and in their culture, I was appalled by the fact that their government has spent BILLIONS of dollars on the World Cup, yet there are still people sleeping on the ground and digging to find food in trash cans. What happened in our world that made items more important than people? Often times, and I am guilty of this as well, when we thing about being blessed, we think of the giant houses we grew up in or the nice cars we always had. In my mind, specifically, having money was in direct correlation with how blessed I was. THIS IS WRONG, PEOPLE. Matthew 5: 3-10 says, "Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth. Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled. Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God. Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God. Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." Never does it say, "Blessed are those with nice houses and fancy cars, for they will see heaven." NO! Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that having nice things is a sin and that those things aren't blessings, but they are not the blessing we should be focused on. A lot of my generation uses hashtags, so we will say we are #blessed. When I think of #blessed, I think of an instagram picture that probably has a pretty girl 's selfie showing too much skin or a guy standing with a nice truck that his parents gave to him. When I think of #blessed, I think of the worldly items that we view as blessings, the things that give us the attention we want at the moment, but they're things that won't matter in the long run. Have you ever noticed that the people that don't have as many worldly items are usually happier? I do not think that is a coincidence. I think it is because they have realized what the true blessings in life are; without all of the worldly distractions,  it is so much easier to see God active and working in our lives. When I take a step back and look at my life, I think the biggest blessing is having two parents that love each other unconditionally and have for 27 years. Which, by the way, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MOM AND DAD. I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH! By having such awesome role models in my life, I have learned what love looks like in a healthy way and how to love someone like Jesus would. That is a true blessing in my life. GOD IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN ANY WORLDLY ITEM WE COULD EVER HAVE!!! So, I think it is time for our generation to stop being #blessed and decide to be truly blessed by our King who loves us so unconditionally.



Also, here are some pictures from the beautiful church we went to

 and the theatre we went to that had the most beautiful chandelier EVER.

Brazil is cool and the Holy Spirit is too.

HI FRIENDS!

okay, so I posted another blog somewhere else a couple of days ago and now I can't remember where it is... Oops. I am not about to retype it all, so sorry, but if I find it, I will be sure to post it again on this one. From now on though, I will post on this blog, so I won't lose anymore posts.

Alright, now on to more blogging. I am in Brazil for the next five weeks and so far I love it here. I would definitely move here in a heartbeat. Unfortunately, that probably won't happen. At least not for a little while. No promises that it won't happen though! I have only been here for a week and I can already tell that God has big things planned. After church yesterday, I really began to think about the Holy Spirit and how we never really talked about it in church growing up. It is so much different to be in a community where they openly profess their feelings in church. Sitting in service yesterday, one of the most different things was during prayers people would openly say their own prayer or repeat what the preacher was praying. They didn't care what anyone around them would think. This has always been one of my biggest problems in church. I never wanted to raise my hands up during a song or say Amen during a sermon because what if my friends thought I was weird. THIS IS NOT OKAY! How many other kids these days do you think are thinking the same thing? It really bothers me. Why are we bottling up the way the Holy Spirit makes us feel just because we don't want to be judged? Why are we not comfortable with just letting it out and not being ashamed of  it? I have talked to Ansley about what I think about the Holy Spirit and I am convinced that whenever I get tears in my eyes when I am overwhelmed by happiness or chill bumps on my skin while listening to a certain song it is because the Holy Spirit is alive and in me. I don't think this for only myself, but for anyone. The emotions we experience in church are God saying, "Hey! I am here with you and I love you so dang much!" I believe that God speaks to me through my emotions. I know I can be a pretty emotional person, but I am not talking about the emotional roller coaster I am constantly riding. I am talking about the emotions I experience while praying, worshiping, or even just talking about Him. I think He enjoys watching the joy He brings and will continue to bring me through sharing His love with people. And you know what? I think that is really cool.


Also, here is a picture of how beautiful Porto Alegre is and of me holding a tarantula.